it is.

 I don't know how the Lord has been so good as to put us on so many hearts, but I continue to be amazed (and also REALLY grateful) for the people asking to bring a meal, help in some way, etc.  The Lord KNOWS I just can't be doing all this right now, and he keeps reminding and reminding me that He SEES us, He knows, and that He cares and is able to send help.   One friend even  sent us her housekeeper this week, and while I didn't realize how much the house has been being neglected and also weighing on me, the moment the lady left I felt like we were GONNA make it, after all...A little help makes such, such a difference in those times where you're at the end of yourself and what you can do. So grateful.  Another woman from small group brought me a box of groceries tonight that perfectly filled the empty snack drawer, and another friend is bringing dinner tomorrow night. 

Tomorrow our bonuses finish school, and Lily, Sofie and Nora hope to finish Friday...we are all ready for a slightly less pace, and I'm thankful. Please pray for all these dear children's hearts...a lot to process, a lot of emotions, a lot of grace needed and a lot of ministering to hearts going on - I need wisdom and help and I am thankful that the primary minister to each of these dear ones is the Lord who KNOWS and IS equipped.  We are all tired and a change of pace will do us all good.  

After more changes and complications, Dad begins radiation at Cleveland Clinic tomorrow, Wednesday. Tomorrow also happens to be the exact day my mom passed away, at Cleveland Clinic, 2003. I kind of don't know what to do with that, nor do I understand how we are here. 

But. 

I am thankful for my mom and my dad every day, and I will be thankful for them again tomorrow. I was raised firmly in His love on purpose by them both, and I will do the same with every child He gives me for however long...and they taught me how...how to utterly lay yourself down for raising Him up.

I do NOT know how we are here.  But I know and taste and see that He is, too.  

He keeps asking if that's enough for me.