No sooner had we gotten our sweet crew to Arkansas that my dad ended up at the ER in Tampa, and he’s still there. Blood infection, wound infection, trying to get some handle on the pain. While some very happy kiddos are petting gators and hiking the Hot Springs, I am in all the internal pieces, trying to be present, trying to get a plan together, trying to assess from afar.
New Years, Lily’s turning 14 in three days, getting home, school projects assigned over Christmas break, all the things restarting this week or kicking off, a million pieces that don’t seem to fit in a season that feels like a bad dream. I’ve never felt so much like I’m trying to handle life and do my best and love well and persevere all underwater, with weights around my ankles and stones in my stomach.
The person I call when everything is too much and we don’t know what to do…it’s dad.
I’d continue to cling to your prayers. Thank you so much for praying
Prayers❤️🩹
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you, friend. Praying alongside you over everything. -RS
ReplyDeleteDear Stacey, I pray as I read each of your entries. Jesus shines so brilliantly as you share your heart, hurts, and hopes. May the Lord refresh you as you have so faithfully refreshed others.
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ReplyDeleteFather, once again (how many times now?) I lift this family up to you. Remember them each moment of each day. Walk with them tangibly in each event. Be with Stacey’s dad and wife in his health issues. Give peace amongst the fear and chaos, in the distance, in the desire to be in several places at once but physically can’t. Thank you for technology so loved ones can be present with others in some form.
ReplyDeleteGrace. I ask for your grace.
Amen. LSA
May the new year bring peace and joy
ReplyDeleteContinuing my prayers for your dad and for the Ayars family. Love you all. Lori Smith
ReplyDeletePraying for Malcolm
ReplyDeletePraying for your father & the Ayars family. Please keep us posted with update on your dad.
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