His table

The Lord, man. 

Where is He not? When does He not love us enough to love us to righteousness? 

He. Always. Wants. MORE.

And that, my dear ones, is LOVE. He has in His heart this vision of who He made us to be...who He made Stacey Ayars to be...and it is FREE, it is Holy, it is fragrant, it is selfless, it is beautiful. 

And until I'm ALL THERE...He's at work.

Until I start ignoring His voice and ignoring His leading and refusing obedience, He NEVER gonna leave me alone. 

And. I. Am. So. Thankful. 

I'm so thankful He's not content with less than all of me. I'm thankful He never says, "Stacey, less than holy-as-I-am-holy, eh, good enough." 

There is ONE THING good-enough in my life. And it's Him.

Until I'm with Him, looking full in His wondrous face, Lord be at work. Love me that much. 

And He does.

He reminded me in church today again of that image of the woman He wants me to be. That woman at rest in the chair of His presence, trusting Him fully and praying for His people. He reminded me again of the fully-forgiving, fully-loving, fully-abandoned woman He wants and that the world needs. 

And He lovingly showed me where I fall short.

Once He shows us that? We can stuff it down and silence Him. Or it can change everything.

This God we have? Even what He painfully and lovingly shows us, He is ready to HELP us do.

I SEE, Lord, I prayed this morning, help me.

and He did. 

He does. 

I get thinking His table should be so many things. Should look such and such. Should have these foods, these attitudes, these blessings. Should be approached a certain way. 

And you know what He said of His table?  Come.

This is me, body and blood broken and bled. There is nothing you can do or fall short to shorten my love nor my arm. Come.

If there is NOTHING we can do to stop His love from coming after us, why can others do SO much to stop OUR love? How can THEIR shortcomings and sin keep us in unforgiveness when OURS didn't stop HIM? How can our love be limited to those who love us back, or when it is merited? When HIS love. Never. Fails. 

When the church starts looking like THIS...oh man. 

I come to the table with NOTHING. 

He meets me with ALL of Himself and the completeness of His LOVE.

If I walk away from that table with less than all that....the world is missing out and so am I. 

The only thing that stops Him from touching the broken places, from healing, from helping, from speaking, from leading...the only thing that can block Him from us is US.

I'm not content being the best person I can be.  That dream HE has for abandoned, loving and holy mirror-image children, that's the dream I want for myself, nothing less. Cost regardless.

The good word sermon the Lord used to meet me...