with hope

If we run out of propane, who can teach me how to cook over charcoal? Where can we get charcoal? Where would I build a cookfire? 

Wait, if we have some power, could I do all our meals in the instant pot?

I bet I could. We could just do all our cooking in the instant pot.
No hot water for dishes or baths, but we'd be ok. We could do that.  Everyone does that.
If we run entirely out of fuel, how much power would we have each day? 
What will I do about the fridge? What about the water pump? 
How much fuel do we need to make SURE to save for an emergency?
How many people's emergencies do we need to save for?
How can we make that 15 gallons of gas we got last week cover all the grocery shopping for Emmaus and those emergencies?
Should the Heckman's still come next weekend?
Dr. Ray? Should we still have the Master's Class?
What about the team from NorthRidge...coming to do our spiritual retreat?
Can we host them? Feed them? Pick them up at the airport? What if we don't have any fuel? 
How many people can do camping with us?
What if we cancel? How can we keep going like this WITHOUT some HELP, without this retreat, without some 'break', a year now in the planning?
How long can this keep on?
How are things still seeming to be getting worse?
How CAN we plan like this??

Add a million other thoughts and you have the weekend, until the last question I dumped onto Maxi.

Should we start cancelling things instead of pushing on? We've been locked down for over a month...things are not improving. How can we possibly plan like this?

Well, Maxi said simply, I guess you just plan with hope.

walking to church with our students again today

I keep thinking about that.

And about all the meals George Muller sat down to with the kitchen empty.

We're in a new season of faith, Haiti is, we are, I am.

We're in deeper than what we can see and beyond what everyone thought.

So here we are...we're trusting. And if we're going to trust, we're going to trust with hope.

Not that things are going to get better. Not that we're going to get fuel. Not that children will be able to go to school soon.

Just with hope in Him.

If He's in it.

If He's in it, and He's in it, we will keep on planning, I guess, with HOPE.

with hope, yet again tonight, sending out the truck on precious final inches of generator fuel,
hoping and praying to find some gas or diesel