31 May 2012

counting

When I was a kid, my mom always paved over our complaints or bickering or whining by bursting out in the very-in-the-moment-annoying song, Count your blessings, count them one-by-one!  Count your blessings, see what God has done!  Count your blessings, count them one-by-one, count your many blessings, see what God has done!


I can still hear her belting it out until we started to comply with the counting.  The reminder to dwell on what God has done is still so vital in my day-to-day!  So here's a start...


1)  Cooking supper and having access to ALL the ingredients in Asian Orange Chicken.  (or having access to all the ingredients of ANY recipe!)
2)  A billion ducks at the pond today...Sofie's favorite word...DUCK! DUCK!
3)  J,J,J & J's house
4)  Dad back from Kentucky
5)  Two healthy, beautiful, God's children
6)  A full speaking schedule this summer!   (It's changed a bit...check out our updated schedule and additions at the end of this post!)  It's about to get really busy, but we're so excited to share some of what God's doing with so many of you!
7)  This opportunity Matt has to be studying and researching and interacting with other brains in England!
8)  A great, newsy letter from someone we've never met who supports us  
9)  People support us
10)  Lisa Notstarkey
11)  The chance to talk to Cammie for a bit yesterday
12)  My sister and Adam coming to town tomorrow!  
13)  God's shared Sofie with us for a YEAR on Monday!
14)  My best friend Bex coming next week 
15)  The chance these quieter days is giving me to reflect on this past year and all that God has been nudging in my heart
16)  The opportunity to talk to friends in Haiti every few days
17)  A van to use when we're home so we aren't homebound
18)  Lily calling the raccoons that keep destroying our garbage "Rat-Coons".  Hey, rats are all she's ever known.
19)  Moose Tracks and Mud Pie Slow Churned in the freezer
20)  My Utmost for His Highest (check out today's here!) continuing to challenge and change my heart after all these years
21)  Zucchini.  and watermelon.
22)  The opportunity to see some great friends that I haven't seen since...high school?...on Saturday 
23)  A great email from Matt Laff
24)  Roasting marshmallows....and have you seen the jumbo ones??  oh man.
25)  Jenn and her ever-loving family
26)  I'm not sitting here sweating like a pig (not that you're pigs, Haiti friends, but I know you're sweatin')
27)  Our pediatrician friend from the East coast being willing to see--and immunize--the girls when our regular pediatrician here is booked until August...yay, Lee!
28)  Watching and hearing Lily miss Haiti, and realizing that God has even provided peace for HER.
29)  Having a husband and father whom we are blessed to miss terribly    
30)  Your prayers...what a gift, what a blessing.  


What's your list look like???



Ayars Updated Speaking Schedule







JULY 26...return to Haiti!

29 May 2012

not alone, not in need, and NOT church

Just got off the phone with Junior, and MAN, I'm just so proud to be his sister and friend!


Can I make a confession?  I've been really down these last few days.  Our "normal" life in Haiti has me feeling lonely.  I'm used to having dozens, even hundreds of people in and out of my life every day.  Crazy busy-ness.  Tons of social-ness.


When an unexpected business emergency took dad out of town yet again, I've found myself alone with the girls in a city where I know very few people, over a holiday weekend in which everyone is with family, in a culture that keeps to itself.


The three of us have been flocking to playgrounds, Wendys, Meijers, anywhere that lots of people are.  However, being with a million people who are ignoring you is rather lonely as well.  Add in the exhaustion that comes from being alone with two very little and needy ones 24/7 day-in and day-out...


I've been down.  


And then I call Junior to see how their summer missionary adventure/experiment has been going, and instantly feel invigorated, inspired, grateful, content...blessed.  
Alone a million miles from home, from my husband, and from my entire family, I am HIS.  I'm still His daughter.  He is still passionate about me.  Intimately interested.  He still has a plan for my days, even lonely ones.  He still has a plan for my life right here, right now.  Praise the Lord.


After what seemed to be a very discouraging start, Jodenel, Junior, Jean-Marie and Jean-Baptiste (our 5 J's with Jesus :) are jumping for joy.  It's true, the zone they're in is NOT interested in church.  And they are NOT interested in religion.  And they are NOT interested in pastors.
Junior and Jodenel
Jean-Baptiste, left
Jean Marie (and Jean-Baptiste, right)



But turns out, they're awfully interest in God's Word and the four men who rather bizarrely showed up on their doorsteps to share it with them.  They're eating in up, listening daily in two different corners of the community, until today when a woman offered up her yard to hear more...now three.  


Our brothers are just telling stories.  Starting at the beginning of The Great Story.  Sharing testimony after testimony--using Adam, Abraham, Joseph, Daniel, David, Paul, Peter--of who God is, the problem of sin, the solution.  


I've been praying that God would provide a tent for them for shelter.  Just a little tent.  Just something to keep them dry.  


A man in the village came up to them yesterday and said, "look, you can stay under that little tarp if you want, but I have a house you all can stay in all summer."


In a place and condition such as Haiti, this is just a miracle.  WAY more than they had hoped for.  WAY more than I had asked for.  He does that.


They will continue to meet in these three parts of Au Troude (Oh-True), and then once a week, all these parts meet together to hear the Gospel.  You know...church.   But it sure won't be Sunday morning, there sure won't be any ties and jackets, and it sure won't be called that.


I'm pretty sure He doesn't care.  I'm pretty sure He's a billion times more touched than I even am over the thought of this large community, completely non-believing, hearing about Himself every day.  


And I know the Spirit is at work, and even now I can see the light in Jean-Marie, Jean-Baptiste, Junior, Jodenel's eyes as they share His Story...can imagine the stirring in people's hearts as they hear things they have never heard before, and yet realize what they're hearing is TRUE.  THE True.  


My inward woes have been exchanged for outward hallelujah's in light of who He STILL is and what He is doing...wherever I am and whoever I am with, or without.  


Praise the Lord, I'm no more alone than Junior is in a community of total strangers!
"What do you need, Junior?" I asked right before hanging up.


"Oh, Stacey, why do you always ask me that?" he immediately responded.  "You know I don't need anything.  I've got everything I need in Him."


I still have so far to grow...
Praises.















27 May 2012

the Good or the Best?



As soon as you begin to live the life of faith in God, fascinating and physically gratifying possibilities will open up before you. These things are yours by right, but if you are living the life of faith you will exercise your right to waive your rights, and let God make your choice for you. 
God sometimes allows you to get into a place of testing where your own welfare would be the appropriate thing to consider, if you were not living the life of faith. But if you are, you will joyfully waive your right and allow God to make your choice for you. This is the discipline God uses to transform the natural into the spiritual through obedience to His voice.
Whenever our right becomes the guiding factor of our lives, it dulls our spiritual insight. The greatest enemy of the life of faith in God is not sin, but good choices which are not quite good enough. The good is always the enemy of the best. In this passage (Genesis 13:9), it would seem that the wisest thing in the world for Abram to do would be to choose. It was his right, and the people around him would consider him to be a fool for not choosing.
Many of us do not continue to grow spiritually because we prefer to choose on the basis of our rights, instead of relying on God to make the choice for us. We have to learn to walk according to the standard which has its eyes focused on God. And God says to us, as He did to Abram, “. . . walk before Me. . .” (Genesis 17:1).

-O. Chambers

25 May 2012

put some clothes on (His daughter)

Now I know blogging about internet usage was pushing it.  If you don't want to read anything that may be personally upsetting, you don't have to read this.  

But there is a major issue that has been hitting home with me a lot lately in both cultures I'm a part of, and I've told the Lord several times now that "You KNOW I can't write about that!"

But after it came up again a few days ago, I prayed in bed Monday night that He would bring the issue into my life again if I should boldly speak out (well, write out), and yesterday I got my confirmations.  (Thanks, Sue and then Jen!)

Look.  We've got to start dressing differently. 

Now wait...hang with me!  I know this is annoying.  And I know it's coming from a woman who professed to be frumpy and out of style just a few days ago.  

I'm not talking about respecting yourself enough to dress respectfully, though I could.  I'm not talking about making sure the world knows you're set apart by dressing set apart, though I could.  And I'm not even talking about covering up so we don't cause our brothers and sisters to stumble, though I could.  

I'm talking about being bought with a price.  I'm talking about being a temple.

Yesterday, Lily and I had a heart-to-heart over lunch about why she should have cheese and grapes and turkey instead of chips and candy.  I realized as we talked that it's NOT because mommy says so, or because this organic/whole-foods kick America is on says so.  It's because Jesus lives in her.  

If Christ lives in us, and works through us, then we should eat well.  If our body is the house that He's given us as a gift, and it's actually HIS body, and the place where He dwells, then we have to take care of it.

"You were bought with a price: therefore, glorify God with your body." 1 Cor. 6:19.  

I mean, that's it.  Glorify God with your body.  It is a Biblical command...to BE glorifying.  We're here for His glory.  Not matter what else we're called to, that's a given.  We're called to give Him glory.  With our speech, yes, with our behavior, yes, with our appearance, yes.  

Maybe the way we dress is ok.  I'm sure it's not as bad as others.  

But can I sit where I am and say that my dress raises holy hands and radiates Glory to God ?

Can we sit where we are and say that about the way our daughters dress?  The words and images on our sons t-shirts?...becasuse God gave us our children for His glory, too.  

It's super-hard, because what I'm talking about (giving glory to God) is rarely IN.  I don't know where you live, but it's not IN where I am, and it's not IN where we are in Haiti.  If it's not in, not popular, then it's hard to do, because it's going against the grain when it's so much easier to go with the flow.

But Corinthians hits it again, "You were bought with a price: therefore, do not be slaves of men."  1 Cor. 7:22.  

Glorify God with your body.  Do not be slaves of men.  

Nor what they think.  Nor what they say.  Nor what they do.  Nor what they wear.  Nor what they tell you to wear.

I know there are a lot of really cute clothes out there that are really tight and really short and really strappy or really low.  I know because I see girls my own age, far older and far younger, wearing them.  To Church.  On His temple TO His temple.

If you want Christ to be the Lord of your life, or if you're parenting in a household that does, then "do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom God has given you?  Do you not know that you are NOT your own?" (1 Cor. 6:19)

We are not our own!  We're not FOR us!  Revolutionary, friends. 

We're NOT our own.  That means we don't DECIDE what WE want to wear.  We don't decide how WE want to act.  We don't consider what WE want to do.  

We're not our own.  We are a temple...man, what a sacred image that immediately imparts.  If I'm His daughter, if I'm His son, if I'm raising one of His daughters or sons, then I'm a temple where the Holy Spirit of GOD resides.  

And that's all there is to it.  

Not about legalism, not about three more inches here and bring it up an inch there.  Not about in style or out of style.  Not about "Christian" dress.  Not about wearing what may literally be what E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E else is wearing or wearing what NO one is wearing.  

It's about giving Him glory.  

We don't "slip up" in how we dress.  Stop every time you head out the door.  Stop your kids every time they head out the door.  For His glory?  


Man, He's got so much work to do on me, let me tell you.  Most days, I feel like I need to tattoo "I AM FOR HIS GLORY" on my forehead just to keep reminding myself.  I'm SO bent on it being about me. 

But praise the Lord, it's not.  Praise the Lord, I'm not my own.  

I sincerely Praise the Lord, 'cause as much as I can act to the contrary, I don't WANT to be my own.  I WANT to have been bought with a price.  I want to be His.  I want to be for His glory.

And I want to make the commitment to dress like it.  












  






23 May 2012

pray

Rejoicing in and grateful for your prayers!

Matt...please keep praying for him while he continues to work and study in England.  He's having a great time and making lots of progress, but is understandably missing his girls.  We've never done more than 2 weeks apart and aren't really enjoying that part.  He continues to study and meet with his advisor and others during the day, and will travel this weekend to Wales to speak in a church there. We're so thankful for this opportunity...and for your prayers!
The man Matt is doing his doctorate under, Dr. David F.

Junior and students...Yesterday Junior and several other students headed out to a remote part of Haiti that has no church, no disciples, and no known Christians.  Their plan is to live there, in a tent, for most of the summer, evangelizing, discipling, and church planting!  Months of prayer and preparation behind them, this is the response of their prayers to be missionaries for Christ.  

We're really excited about this simple yet great work, and our hearts are with them!  Please be praying for them, and also for other students who are taking part in all kinds of different ministry.  I've been talking to Juinor every few days and will keep you posted.

Continued transition...Lily has now joined Matt and I in understanding more of our cross-cultural lives.  After seeing a few pictures of friends in Haiti yesterday, she's saying, "I want to go back to Haiti now!"  A weekend with Aunt Lisa has her begging for more time with Lee...she is anxious to see her cousin Nico on the east coast...she loves grandpa's house...she cried when seeing Poppy on Skype yesterday...

Our lives are so spread out that you're always missing somewhere and someone!  Thank you for your prayers for continued transition!

Emmaus...finally, we'd love your prayers for Emmaus Biblical Seminary!  There is a LOT to do before the new school year starts, and we are working daily with our friends and staff to be ready.  Please pray for His direction for vision casting, new students, courses, etc.  Pray for students working to find support for the upcoming school year, for staff working to get things ready for them, and for the mission field of Haiti that staff and students alike are living and working in!

Always grateful for your prayers!!


21 May 2012

mission field: denver

What a great weekend in Denver!  It was great to explore a new city, wonderful to have time with my Dad and the girls, and such a blessing to feel a bit more a part of Lisa and Adam's world!
 Sofie is struggling quite a bit with all the changes (we were just home in Haiti less than 10 days ago, and things have changed so much!) and still pushing a tooth and drippy, but she just stayed close to Mama and Lily was in heaven with her best friend.
 We had a great birthday party for Aunt Lisa, and somewhat unsuccessfully tried making her birthday cake a "Piecaken" which managed to be more like an iced pie since the cake somehow disappeared while baking.  I don't know.  Iced pie is still good, you know?  But ugly.
One of the best things was just getting to know these two better as a couple and in their element.  I know we loved Adam before, but man, after this weekend, I LOVE Adam.  God has given him so many gifts and such special parts of His heart, and I'm just blessed to be on the planet with him...much more related to him!  I'm pumped to see God using them even now, and I know the plans God has for Lisa and Adam's future are SO good and for His glory, and am blessed to know a couple who loves the Lord and is passionately available for His use and glory.

When you fly in, it's so obvious that Denver is in the middle of the desert, but wow, there is so much community effort to make things green and beautiful!
Meanwhile, the girls had their first encounter with squirrels, who either haven't found a way across the ocean to Haiti or have all been eaten :)  These were no ordinary squirrels, however, and they got so close to us that I had to wave sticks at them and shout, "Back! Back!"  and then felt really dumb when Lily and Sofie looked at me like I was nuts.
Lily called these the "toutouni people" (naked people) and encouraged me every time we drove by to get a photo of their "toutouni butts."
The science center was a HUGE hit for both girls.  Lily played with everything, and Sofia sucked on everything (it is no wonder the girl is still sick.)
The best part of the weekend, however, was Sunday.  I've heard so much about their church, and it was WOW-encouraging to see a body of believers so set on being missionaries where they are in Denver and on Biblical preaching and study and transformation.  "It's ok to be where you are," the pastor shared while unpacking the story of David and Bathsheeba and talking about the truth of sin, "and we are ok with where you are, who you are, and what you've done and where you've been.  But it's not ok to stay there."  

I didn't just hear a lot of good truth from The Truth, but SAW a lot of good truth from The Truth in it's body and in where the church is focusing it's time, energy, money and people, and this was just great.  By the end of the morning, I felt surrounded by other missionaries, just in a different part of the world.


If a missionary is someone who spends the best of their time, energy, money and giftings on sharing and living and being the Gospel--sharing, living and being Jesus--then I'm pretty sure we're all called to be missionaries, family!

Praise the Lord for my Denver family and for the chance to love on them!

18 May 2012

denver, scotland and summer "vacation"

Thursday morning Dad, the girls and I flew to Denver to surprise my baby sister on her 26th birthday!  VERY fun, and the girls are adoring Aunt Lisa time.  Denver really is a beautiful city, and we have now spent time at three of it's best playgrounds :) Aunt Lisa had to work two jobs today, but is off tomorrow, so hopefully we'll hit up a kid's museum or something.  As always, it's so good to be with family and to be together for occasions that we're usually required to miss due to our Haitian Destination.  


Meanwhile, Matt is safely in England and loving the work, though tomorrow morning he travels to Scotland to speak at the OMS UK conference for the weekend.  He's still catching up with the time change and downright busy!  


Also been talking to Maxi and Junior, and life is good at home!


I don't have any of the right cords to share with you any of my pictures, and I'm still waiting for pix from Matt, so…coming soon!  If you've emailed, we'll get back to you soon!  Dad and both girls continue to be quite sick, so it's been a very busy and high-energy couple of days.  


Thanks for all the emails and comments from our last blog…I had thoroughly expected to be boo-ed off the block!  I had several great conversations on the playground today…very redeeming :)



16 May 2012

it's probably just me.

It only seems fair that I be able to share some cultural observations about our time stateside since I'm always sharing cultural observations about our time in Haiti.  


I know I'm out of the loop.  If acceptance is the first step to recovery, I accept.   I know I'm frumpy and old-fashioned compared to the "modern" American 20-something of today.  You'll notice when you see us.  We're out of it.  We've been "out of it" too long now to act like we're "in it."  


I don't know how to text, and it takes me so stinkin' long to get a "how are you?" beeped in there that...well, I just don't get it.  It's a phone.  Why am I not just calling you?  I could have called you by now!


I don't know how to do scarves or skinny jeans, and to be frank, I've lived in a skirt for so many years now that any kind of pants make me feel a bit...scandalous.  


I don't facebook.  I don't know how to facebook.  I don't know what you have on facebook or how you put it there.  As a much-more-cool friend told me a few weeks ago, "Stace, the reality is that facebook is the way you do things now.  It's how I invite people to do stuff and how I know what's going on!  You've gotta use it if you want to stay up on what is happening!"  Well... That explains a lot about why I'm out of the loop.


I don't know what's in style this summer.  I don't know how you get "apps" or where you put them, I don't know why signs everywhere have barcodes you can take pictures of (or something?) for "more information", nor do I know anything about all these weird food/diet/allergy things on menus and packages.  


Let's face it.  Maybe I have some friends on Facebook.  But I also have some friends who sign their names "X".  Maybe gluten-free/low-fat/vegan/organic is really important in the lives of our friends.  But we also have friends whom having food is really important to.  Today I watched six men (this is NOT an exaggeration) replace one slide because it didn't have rails on the side and moms were complaining.  This is my community.  But I also have a community who has no concept whatsoever of a playground, and whose five-year olds are shimmying up 20 foot coconut trees with machetes in their teeth (also, NOT an exaggeration!).  


One is NO better than the other.  They're just different, and I "get" both in many ways.  I "do" both in many ways.  


But there IS something that is worrying me about "our" American culture.  


The iPhone/constant internet access thing?  


Yeah, it's disturbing me.  


I know, I know.  You're probably reading this on your iPhone.  And you have a REALLY cute case that makes ME want a really cute case and I don't even have one.  And I bet it's really convenient sometimes and that it can be used for good things,  and etc. etc. etc.


But today, when I was pushing Sofie on a baby swing, I started to say something to the mom next to me who was pushing her little guy, and realized she was pushing with her left hand and scrolling all over her iPhone with her right.  


I stopped mid-sentence, and she looked up at me as if I had interrupted a conversation she was having with three other people.  Well, maybe she WAS having a conversation with three other people.  That I couldn't hear or see and wasn't a part of.


So, I looked around, and do you know that there were four moms pushing toddlers, and that ALL three of the other moms were on their iPhones?  Push, scroll, tap....push, scroll, tap.


We were not talking to each other.  And we were NOT talking to our children.  We were Facebooking and emailing and texting and watching You-Tube and who knows what else.  Maybe they were reading our blog.  I don't know.


I get that I don't get it.  That's fine.  I'm out of it.  But seriously!  How can this be ok?  I have a grand total of like 3 friends in the whole town.  (And one is my dad.)  And I love Jesus, and I want to share Him.  I want to take every chance I have to make friends, and to share Him with these friends.  


But MAN, is our culture making this hard!  I had better conversations with everyone's 2-year olds!


Irked, I paid close attention today at the store, at dinner, in the car, and everywhere we went, there were loads of people on-line through their iPhones, spending time with people or things that were NOT there...passing over people who WERE there.  There was even a guy eating with his family who NEVER looked up from his mesmerizing black box, not hearing a word anyone said.


The reality, I guess, is that I now come from a culture where there is nothing to do BUT talk to each other.  It's all anyone does.  It's all anyone wants to do.  


Complete strangers will stop you just to get to know you.  Women will invite you into their yard to talk for as long as you'll stay.  Friends will come and sit in your bedroom for hours when you are sick, just so you have people to talk to.  


And there's something in that.  


Do I love vomiting while friends are literally in my bathroom talking to me?  No.  Do I love people talking to me through my kitchen window before I've had a chance to have my coffee?  No.  


But it sure makes you feel loved.  Important.  Valuable.  And being surrounded by women my age today and feeling RUDE for trying to talk to them sure made me feel small.  Unimportant.  Annoying.


I think it's pretty obvious which sentiments are the best ground-work for sharing Jesus and His love with people, our call and privilege and command.  In 1812.  And in 2012.  In Haiti.  And in America. 


Is it possible that we're limiting what God can do and wants to do in and through us and even for us by allowing cultural "norms" to over-invade? 


As always, these are just thoughts in progress.  But can I boldly (rudely?) suggest that we all schedule our time online to time when we're alone and for emergencies, and open back up doors for Him to use us and work through us to bring His healing, transforming, life-changing, and intimate love into other's lives?  To talk to our kids?  To call our friends?  To reach out to a stranger?  


When you're out and about, if you see a frumpy girl in baggy jeans with nothing in her hands who is looking at your face...talk to her!  


It's probably just me.









14 May 2012

the paradox of Dr. Matt

Matt is by far the coolest nerd I know...a walking anomaly! 

He can't go to the beach without a 500 page volume on Dynamics of Biblical Parallelism, studies Hebrew and Greek for fun and enjoys diving into deep conversations with other brains that might as well be IN Greek to me.  At the same time he'll beg you to throw a football, goes to town with Tower of Power on the bass, and won't stop asking for a motorcycle.  
God has knit Matt together in a unique way, and on an almost daily basis, I see God using the two sides of Matt to unpack Scripture in a profound and practical way, to relate intimately with Harvard scholars and with men who cannot sign their names and to disciple men and women to deeper walks with Jesus.  
So if you know Matt, it probably comes to no surprise that he's feeling led to continue in his education for the glory of God and to help further His kingdom.  

I asked him to share with you a bit of this journey and to help answer some questions about why, when, where and how.  Tune into your nerd brain (mine is very small and nestled somewhere way back there :) and read on!:

For the past 16 months, I've had the privilege of prayerfully exploring God's call on my life to get a PhD.  Since being an undergraduate student at Asbury College, I have sensed God's call to learn and teach scripture professionally.  

The Spirit-led pursuit of that calling has resulted in my becoming professor of Biblical and Theological Studies at Emmaus Biblical Seminary of Haiti (2007-present).  It has also resulted in me earning a Master of Arts (Biblical Literature) degree from Wesley Biblical Seminary via a distance learning model (2008-2012).  


In the Spring 2010, as I began to approach the finish line of the Masters degree program, I began to pray, reflect and have informed dialogue with friends,colleagues, family members and ministry partners about my Spirit-inspired ambitions for pursuing a terminal, post-graduate research degree.  After months of such prayer, reflection and dialogue, I currently find myself at the end of one academic journey, stepping directly into another.  

I've recently been accepted as a doctoral (Ph.D.) candidate at the University of Chester (through St. John's of Nottingham) in England.  I'll be conducting research on dynamics of syntax in Hebrew poetry in Psalms 113-118 (as a sample text).  I will be a part-time student which translates into six years of research, research, more research, accompanied by writing, writing and more writing.  

When researching options for doctoral study, my priority criteria for choosing a program was finding the person that I felt called to study with/under.  Many names came up (thank you Dr. John Oswalt, Dr. Ron Smith, Dr. Victor Hamilton, Dr. Sandy Richter, Dr. Bryan Easley, Dr. Gordon McConville, Dr. Dan Block and finally, Dr. David G. Firth for all your help in coaching me through this process).  

Second to the right person was the right subject to study.  I've known for quite a while that I wanted to do something in hermeneutics, linguistics and literary criticism in the Old Testament.  In other words, I wanted to being doing a close reading of texts with special attention paid to linguistics and interpretation. I've also been teaching Hebrew poetry, Hebrew language, and Psalms at EBS for several years.  
The third criteria was location.  If possible, I wanted to enroll in a program that would allow me to do research and write while maintaing our family's ministry role--where we still feel passionately called--in Haiti.  Thankfully, British doctoral programs permit such scenarios.  

One of our visiting professors at EBS (thanks Pam S.!) put me in contact with David G. Firth from St. John's of Nottingham (validate through the University of Chester).  As correspondence between myself and Dr. Firth ensued, I sensed more and more that this is where God wanted me. So I applied, and have been accepted :).  

Dr. Firth is from Australia, a former missionary (Bible prof) to South Africa, and is currently teaching OT in England (he's also the director of research and distance learning at St. John's of Nottingham).  He is a well-published and reputable Pslams, Hebrew and literary criticism scholar. 

Much more importantly than all of this, he is a man of God who has a burden for the Kingdom and for the biblical literacy and theological competency of the Church.I'm scheduled to be in the UK for three weeks this summer.  

The majority of my time there will be spent in Nottingham with Dr. Firth.  I'll spend one weekend speaking at the annual OMS Scotland Conference in Glasgow (thanks Davies family!), one weekend in Wales speaking at the home church of the director of OMS UK office (thanks Chris P.!).  

Finally, I will have one week in Cambridge at the Tyndale House (they have an extensive theological and biblical studies library) as well as the University of Cambridge library. My dates: May 16-June 6.

For every year in the program, I will have to spend four weeks in the UK.  Again, the rest the time, we will be in Haiti where I will research and write part-time.   I've trusted from the very beginning of this journey that God has been at the helm of this pursuit, not me.  

I must admit that I had my sight set on a certain school and scholar for a number of months, but God (in quite the miraculous fashion) redirected my sights to St. John's with Dr. Firth.  Over and over again, God confirmed this.  Aren't you glad that He's faithful (and competent) to communicate with us? 

I must also admit that I'm tempted to be a bit...okay, a LOT intimidated by the idea of starting into a PhD program at this point in my life.  But, when I stop and reflect on all the things that he has accomplished through my life by the power of His Holy Spirit, I remember that there is nothing, absolutely nothing that he is not able to accomplish through his people.  This is a Red Sea moment.  

We all know the old adage that tells us that calling is always accompanied by equipping (makes you think twice about Jesus' call on our lives for us to be perfect, as our heavenly Father is perfect, doesn't it?).  More than anything, I hope and trust that I come out of this program looking more like Him.  

If nothing else, this is my desire. His life in exchange for mine (ours), everyday (what's your desire?).Thanks is owed to so many for their support and prayers through this process.  If there's anything that our family wishes you to know, it is that we love you and are standing on your prayers and His faithfulness! 

13 May 2012

happy mothers

 As always, I'm missing my momma today!  But I am so incredibly thankful to have these girls in my life, and to have so many incredible mom figures encouraging me on.  


I have a little sister that takes care of me and loves my girls like her own...a Dad who moms far more than he ever should of had to and does it with so much patience and love and CARE...a mother-in-law who is always there anytime we ask...a slew of aunts and aunt figures who remember me and help me and pray for me...four grandma's who love us and remind us that they're proud of us (which is just always so needed!)...and friends who mother us in all the best ways...


I am grateful.   


(Even when those girls are so snotty and coughy that we don't get to go to church.  Or go out to eat.  But I did get Dairy Queen!)  
We're missing these girls, who got to do lots of mothering themselves these last 2 weeks...Mia and Elise, thank you AGAIN for all of your help!
Today Lily and Sofie met Gwendoyln, the duck my grandma had for as long as I can remember and whom I rode just like this when I was their age.  It's at my dad's house now, and the girls adore her...they had to take turns all day with "Gwenlyn" for Lily and "DUCK!" for Sofie.

 Then we finally got out grandpa's Christmas present and fired it up for some awesome marshmallows (as seen above all over Sofie :)
The girls are off to the doctor tomorrow, but I'm hanging strong and Matt and Dad both felt a lot better today...

So thankful to have had such a giving, loving, patient mom bringing me up in the Lord and to have the opportunity to give and love and train up my own with His help and by His grace!

12 May 2012

at work

After a very exciting day yesterday :), we have safely arrived to my dad's house in Columbus, Ohio.  Dad has the flu, Lily and Sofie have been drippy and coughing for days, and today Matt's feeling like he's getting sick, so...we're celebrating this transition with Theraflu and Kleenex.  I WILL NOT GET SICK!  I am determined.  Someone's gotta take care of the crew!


Nonetheless, it was nice to have a store to go to to GET Theraflu and Kleenex, great to have sweet strawberries for breakfast, great to have internet that moves on command, and good to have friends and family back within cell range.  


As always, re-entering our first culture (and second culture, for the girls) has been a bit overwhelming, but more than anything this time, just overwhelmed by the flabbergasting and enormous need for our Lord.  Thankful He has gone before us, continues to surround us and is at work within us!



10 May 2012

on the road again

This last two weeks has been a whirlwind!  Between finals and the end of the school year events, EBS board meetings, closing up the books, graduation, grading and getting ready to head to Ohio, it has been CRAZY!  Here's a few random photos from the last days...
Second year, celebrating their soccer victory

 Church on Sunday at Vilmers, and student Mogene singing with his group.

We stopped at the main OMS campus on our way to taking the board to the beach Tuesday and got these great shot of all kinds of friends...LtoR Jeff E., Rick and Carol F., Sam and Cam and kiddos, Jane and Bud D., Harold B. and Bill and Diana V., with Galen and Linda A. taking the picture.  It was such a fun day!
Then we spent Wednesday in meetings and hanging out with Gertha and baby Thaliya, who is just SUCH a cutie (I think you've heard that a few times now, but oh man!)

This week has been full of lots of ups and downs, but Wednesday was heartbreaking...EBS's night watchman and friend Augustin died in the morning at the hospital in Cap-Haitien.  He was Linda's uncle, and one of the people we had prayed with last time we went to pray with Linda because he'd been having some stomach cramping.  

Just a few days ago he came to see us and shared he was finally doing better...then Wednesday morning we heard early that he had taken a turn for the worse the day before and was in the hospital...

Then Roselor, who is related to Augustin in a very complicated fashion, ran into my office bawling around 10 that he had just died in the hospital.

It was the 4th death in Saccanville in the last 10 days, and the spirit of the village is very discouraged, confused and sad.  We're still just shocked to have lost such a great man...and so quickly.

Life is so full of ups and downs...so thankful for His faithfulness and for several good ministry opportunities the last days have therefore held.

We head for Ohio tomorrow morning and hope to get in by 11 pm...Then Matt heads for England on the 16th...to start his doctorate at the University of Chester!  (more on that Saturday!)

Ah, what a busy week...month...uh, year :) Thanks for your prayers while leave home and while we travel!